To do or not to do? My lack of technoknowhow has brought me to the point of chucking it all in; this website/blogging lark. So why have I decided to crawl on up the wall like a mindless snail?
Because whether or not I give up trying to communicate with the world about what I do and what I think is important in life matters to no one other than myself; and to give up my only chance of doing this would hurt only me.
But at what cost? Semi-sleepless nights, infantile rages in which I threaten to smash my laptop against the wall and grumpy outbursts (usually directed at nobody more sensitive than TV celebs I hate). But it takes it’s toll – all this angst about which button to press and in which order. And I really believe I could have written a whole new book in the time it’s taken to get this far in my education.
Usually, when it comes to things I don’t enjoy, I simply don’t do them. But, with techno, there’s no choice; not today. Any creative pursuit you engage in just has to be wrapped up in the internet. The alternative is you shove it under the bed and it gets forgotten about until you die; then your relatives find it, think, ‘What a shame she never did anything with this,’ and chuck it on the bonfire.
So, to make sure that doesn’t happen and continue inflicting my opinions and achievements/lack of on a largely disinterested audience, I must persevere. That’s why I’m not giving up – not until the next time that f****** techno foot sticks out and sends me headlong.
